Officially I only had 2 weeks vacation, just like so many others, when it comes to work. However it felt way longer and although I started working again four weeks ago I can still feel the holiday vibes. Lucky me! I wonder how much longer I can hold on to that vacation feeling…… Especially if you realise the run-up was kind of crazy.
Pre vacation hurdles
This year I was unemployed for a couple of months. Heading towards the summer I was still not sure if and when I would be working again. Everything maintained unclear and I got uncertain and frustrated. Should I use my savings and go on a holiday no-matter-what? What to do if a job-opportunity required me to be available the entire summer? I really looked forward to spending some vacation time with my blended family, as we don’t have that many opportunities together. And what if I still had no perspective on an employment and I spent too much of my savings on a holiday? Altogether I didn’t feel comfortable spending money upfront on a holiday. So last-minute-holiday was the idea. However last minute became so last minute we ended up staying in the Netherlands, visiting the region ‘Sallandse Heuvelrug and one of the Wadden Islands (Ameland).
As logical as the previous all sounds I sometimes felt really bad and full of stress. I felt disappointment, failure and even a low self-esteem. My mind played many tricks with me leaving me with a feeling that I wasn’t able to provide sufficient for my daughters. I could